last night was complicated. i don't even know if i have the full idea of what happened...

i know no one reads this anyway, but I'm still going to say sorry for ruining everyone's night. because i played a big part in it. i said something to one specific person and to be quite honest, i don't take it back. i don't regret it. i honestly believe in what i said. so fuck you. and people shouldn't tell others that they're sorry for something i did. if you want to brown nose, then fucking do more shit than say I'm sorry for something that you never did. that's just a lack of fucking balls.

speaking of a lack of balls, if some big group can go and sit down at tables while i have to wait, then fuck that, I'm going to go and sit. and then when some fat fuck is mean to me and tells me that we have to wait for be seated, then fuck it, I'm not going to eat there. i'll make a fucking scene and that's what i fucking do. i did make a scene, i pissed off some pompous fat fuck and told the place to fuck off. they didn't seat me even though they had TONS of open seats, so i seat myself. he tells me to wait to be seated. i told him that fuck this shithole and that if i wanted good food i'd eat at home. and walked out. that's me. deal with it.

but yea, don't fucking apologize for something that you didn't do. i'll apologize if i fucking want. and i don't want to. because i do believe in what i say. deal with it.